Music Musing Sneek Peeks ALL OCT

Today, I finally finished editing Walking in the Shadows. I honestly feel like my brain is a bit like KFC extra crispy chicken right now. Some how, though, I still managed to think of the idea that all the Music Musings on Monday this month will be based on music that is played in scenes in Walking in the Shadows. You know what that means from past experience–it means I am also going to show you the scenes from which the music is from!

Oh, and here is a picture peek–this is the back jacket of the e-book. Yes, all my novels as e-books will also have back jackets from now on, thanks to the wonderful, amazing Ellen Ekstrom. She told me about her idea to do so, as to give the “total” novel experience. I agreed completely! Ellen, you’re just so very, very smart!

(My photography is used, of course!)

Onto the songs; there will be two tonight. These are from one of the first scenes in the novel where Tad assigns the class a simple project: Pick a song that you love and play it for the class. It’s a “get to know you” project that gets a bit too personal.

First, Tad plays his song (one of my top 5 songs EVER–it makes me kind of giggly…Yes, I love it that much):

SONG: Don’t stand so close to me

ARTIST: The Police

CD: Greatest Hits

GENRE: Rock, New Wave, Post-Punk


Young teacher, the subject
Of schoolgirl fantasy
She wants him so badly
Knows what she wants to be
Inside her there’s longing
This girl’s an open page
Book marking – she’s so close now
This girl is half his age

Don’t stand, don’t stand so
Don’t stand so close to me
Don’t stand, don’t stand so
Don’t stand so close to me

Her friends are so jealous
You know how bad girls get
Sometimes it’s not so easy
To be the teacher’s pet
Temptation, frustration
So bad it makes him cry
Wet bus stop, she’s waiting
His car is warm and dry

Don’t stand, don’t stand so
Don’t stand so close to me
Don’t stand, don’t stand so
Don’t stand so close to me

Loose talk in the classroom
To hurt they try and try
Strong words in the staffroom
The accusations fly
It’s no use, he sees her
He starts to shake and cough
Just like the old man in
That book by Nabokov

Don’t stand, don’t stand so
Don’t stand so close to me
Don’t stand, don’t stand so
Don’t stand so close to me

Don’t stand, don’t stand so
Don’t stand so close to me

Then, Vera takes her own cheap shot back at Tad, but ends up hurting herself. This song is on my heavier end, but  I love it. The lyrical harmonies and that sick scream; it makes me head bang a little. 😉

(This song is in my top 10)

SONG: Skinwalkers

ARTIST: Blessthefall

CD: Witness

GENRE: Metalcore, Screamo, Christian Hardcore, Post-Hardcore


You’re choking on all your regrets
It’s my last call and it’s just getting harder
Before you end this all
Reaches out for something more

Time makes it hard to breathe
We’ll I’ll live to see another day
And I’ll stay strong
And you said this morning I would break

And I won’t break

Let me go until you know
If it’s coming after all
And they will never catch me
Time makes it hard to breathe
But I’ll live to see another day
And I’ll stay strong
And you said this morning I would break

I will break, I will break
Cause you said this morning I would break

There’s places I have been, no one should ever go
There’s things that I have seen, no one should ever know
There’s places I have been, no one should ever go
There’s things that I have done, no one should ever know

So where do we run, and how do we trust?
When the walls are closing in
And where do you turn, and who do you trust?
When the walls are closing in
Closing in

DUAL SONG ANALYSIS: Both of these songs had a strong impact on my writing of the novel. Don’t stand so close has a very literal impact in the story, but Skinwalkers tells Vera’s story and exactly how she is feeling in that moment. If you read the lyrics, there isn’t much for me to explain.

Now, the scene that these songs inspired and make an appearance in:

 “Aren’t you going to let us in on what your favorite song is? And why? I mean it’s only fair that you join us,” the girl in the front row cooed. She was the one who was sugar sweet to him on the first morning of class. Now she leaned forward, chin in palm.

“I knew you would ask, Lily, so I’m prepared,” he answered.  From the way he was flipping through the songs on his phone I could tell that he was as prepared as I was.  His shoulders tensed as he hit a particular song, and for a moment he stared at the screen. Then his shoulders relaxed, “Yes, here it is…The Police…Don’t Stand So Close to me.”

I watched as the girls around me leaned forward on their hands as they day dreamt that they were that girl and he was that teacher. I soon found myself trying to shrink away into my chair as my face went red with resentment. He had turned my favorite song around on me.

“That was beautiful Mr. Knightley, The Police are so awesome,” Lily commented, fluttering her eye lashes.

Tad was leaning against his desk looking down at his shoes and when he looked up he didn’t look at her, but at me.  “Exactly, Lily.”

“Are they your favorite band?” Lily asked, and I was surprised she could contain her drooling as she stared at his defined chest through his starched blue collar shirt and matching tie.

“Yes they are,” he lied. He knew they were my favorite, and that was the only reason they were on his play list at all.  “Your turn, Lily.”

It was at that point that I stopped listening to anything that was going on in the class room. I sat fuming at him as I tried my hardest to keep the thought of us listening to that song out of my mind, but in the end I couldn’t. I took a deep breath as I felt the emotions hit me. Tad laughed as we spun around his living room; he dipped me as he sang the words into my ear. His breath was a tease against my neck, and when he pulled me back into his arms his lips instantly found mine.

“Vera? Vera, it’s your turn,” Tad’s voice broke into my thoughts.

“Sorry Mr. Knightley,” I sputtered, and it felt as though everyone was staring at my pale, haggard face as I walked up to the front of the room staring at my cell phone, “Uh…I am…need to…find the song.”

The classroom exploded with cruel laughter as I tripped over my own feet, but it ceased when Tad spoke. “I’m not sure what any of you are laughing at.”

“Blessthefall, Skinwalkers,” I said with tones of ‘you can all screw yourselves’.

“A chick that likes heavy music—that’s hot,” one of the guys in the room commented.

Tad kicked the jerk’s desk and the room echoed with the sound of the metal as the provocative music began to play. As I listened to the words of the song I could feel Tad’s eyes on me, and I found myself staring at my feet, praying I could keep the tears down. Why had I chosen this song? Because it was the first one I thought of? Or because I thought it would hurt him, when in reality it hurt me?

“Why that song, Vera?” Tad’s voice had an edge to it, but it only made me wonder more what my choice had done to him.

“Umm…it’s a good song. I like how the band mixes the light singing with the heavy beats and screaming. I guess you never know who you can trust either.”

“Bret, you’re up next,” Tad moved on with his voice flat. I knew he no longer had an interest in his own assignment, and it was because I had hit a nerve.




So, what do you think?


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